Moms with Cancer: Day Four
By Niki Hardy
For some unfathomable reason we had given our son a sky diving experience for his 18th birthday. I suppose it had seemed like a good idea at the time when we were sitting at home with our son’s feet planted firmly and safely on the floor beside us.
When I got cancer, it felt like someone had kicked me out of a plane at 3,000 ft strapped to nothing more than a plastic action figure. Maybe that’s how you’re feeling today too.
We’re told from the moment we meet Jesus that we can trust Him. Our worship songs sing of a trustworthy God who won’t let us down and when a friend is having a rough time, we encourage them to hang on and trust God. But when it’s our turn, when we’re the ones foreclosing on our house or facing daily chronic pain, it’s not as easy as it was from the comfort of our couch. Strapping our most precious things, whether they’re our kids, our mental health, our uncertain jobs, our singleness, or our marriages, into a harness and handing them over to someone else (even the God of the universe) to take care of, is just plain hard.
Whatever life throws at us trusting God is so often easier said than done. I’m learning trust isn’t something we can muster up in an instant but it’s a muscle we can learn to use and build and if we’re going to let God lead us and show us his abundance, we must.
When I got cancer I checked out God’s credentials. I read bible stories of his faithfulness and biographies of people who’d trusted God through unthinkable circumstances. I looked back through my life and remembered the times when God had come through despite my greatest fears, and I began to let go of everything I was clinging to and hold onto him instead. My trust levels grew.
Trusting God is simultaneously a letting go of what we think will make everything better and a holding onto the promise that with Him everything is better. When we trust God, it’s not about us and what we can do but about him and what he can do; it’s about refusing to hold on and bravely choosing to let go.
If you’re struggling to trust God, take a moment to check out his credentials and ponder what it is you’re putting your trust in instead of Him.
How would it feel to let go of what these things and hold onto God instead?