The other day, I was on my last leg. My pregnant body was exhausted, my toddler hadn't stopped talking long enough to take a breath the entire day, and my husband and I were making some big decisions for our family's future. I felt overwhelmed in every way. So when my 2-year-old sauntered up to ask me one more question, I did what I never want to do. I yelled at him, let out a big sigh, and watched as his little lips begin to quiver.
In that moment I felt so unworthy of God's mercy.Yelling at my sweet little kiddo for really no reason, unable to act like the adult in the situation and restrain myself? What kind of good mom does that?
Often times when I mess up as a mom (or wife or friend), I carry my failure around with me. I don't want to let the guilt go. I'll probably mess up again in a similar way, so how can I just accept forgiveness and move on?
When I'm in this place, the Lord speaks firmly:
"My mercies are new every morning."
Yup, I know this verse. I like to think about it when I wake up and have a long day ahead of me. But does it apply in the middle of the afternoon when I've failed for the 89th time that day?
"I remember my affliction...the bitterness...I well remember them, and my soul is downcast within me. Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope:
Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness."
Lamentations 3:19-23 (emphasis added).
His mercies are new every day. Every moment. We don't have to wait for a set period of time in order to be forgiven and viewed by God as pure and spotless - that's how He sees us all the time.
His compassion isn't endless because I became more worthy. Not because my kid became 75% more well behaved, or because I had a conflict-free day with my husband.
God's mercies are new every day because of His great love and His great faithfulness.
Let's receive this for ourselves today, mamas. Whether you just messed up and need His mercy now, or you need it in five minutes - it is fresh, available, and unending.