Giving God our real selves
Hi everyone! I'm Amy and I'm the Support Ministry Manager here at Thrive Moms. Just to tell you all a little bit about me -- I live in Nashville, TN with my husband Ben. We have four children (three living, one in heaven) and I'm currently 20 weeks pregnant with baby #5. We live our lives at lightning speed. My husband and I's relationship from dating to the alter was 9 months, after being told I was infertile we were pregnant the month after we got married, and we'll be having our fifth baby just before our 6th wedding anniversary. (Whew! Did you catch all that?) Our home is filled with abundant amounts of coffee, fresh fruit, all baked things, chaos, toys, giggles, tantrums and everything in between.
I just got through a long season of waiting. God has taught me so much about what it looks like to wait, to find contentment and joy in uncertain circumstances, and to eat, drink and be merry. I started to thrive in that season of waiting knowing the pressure was off and that I could just rest in God's plan and know that new things were coming. I was totally ok just hanging out and waiting for whatever was next because I knew it was going to be worth waiting for.
But now it's all here and our circumstances are hard. The new job has taken a lot of adjustment and put stress on our family. There are lots of health concerns for me during this pregnancy, delivery is just around the corner, and I'm going to have four kids age 3 and under.
So this is where the rubber meets the road. Am I putting all this faith God gave me into practice?Fear, anxiety, and stress have hit me like a ton of bricks and I've found myself folding and throwing my hands in the air. Deep down in my heart I know the Holy Spirit is there nudging me with Jesus' words. My love casts out fear. I see everything that is going to happen and I've already provided for every need you're going to have. I want to calm your heart. Trust in me and see how much I love you.
It's easy to push the worries down, to let fear fester in my heart, to try to ignore stress with tv, sleep, food, whatever. But I've learned to go to God with my honesty. To pour out all that weigh me down and tell God all the scary things I'm feeling. This is where God changes me. It's there in my honesty that He can work and cover my fear with His love and His truth. It's there in my honesty that He gives me strength and peace. This is where my relationship with Jesus sees depth and growth.
I'm not going to continue to numb myself with distractions or ignore what I'm feeling. Jesus wants all of us, not just the pretty parts or the spiritual parts. He wants to know our fears, our stresses, the things tugging at our hearts. He is here -- ready to heal, ready to soothe, ready to love. Let's approach our Savior with the dirt and let Him grow something new and beautiful.
Present over perfect. He doesn't want our good selves, but our real selves.
1 Peter 5:5-7 Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
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