WHEN JESUS TAKES THE GUILT AWAY
As a college student struggling with perfectionism, legalism, guilt, and condemnation, my life was changed when a Cru staff woman named Susan, showed up at my door one night. She had known me for a little while and could tell I was really struggling. We were at a conference and she came to my hotel room with a hug and a yellow legal pad. She gently and calmly said, "Okay, I want you to take this notepad, write down every sin you can remember doing, having done against you, anyone you're angry toward or any scenario you feel ashamed of. And then call me."
A few hours and quite a few pages later, she showed back up at my door challenging me to write the truth of 1 John 1:9: “If we confess our sins He is faithful and just to cleanse us and forgive us of all unrighteousness.” over top the things I'd tearfully scribbled. She said, “Write the Truth of God over your sins until they are no longer readable.”
I sat on the edge of my hotel bed staring down at the jumbled mess of Jesus-covered junk. Susan asked me to tear the paper up into tiny pieces and flush them down the toilet. I felt like this was a little dramatic, but as I did it and she reminded me that this was the way God viewed me and my sins as a Christian, I began to feel free.
I was covered. God, in Christ, saw my sin as covered by the blood. But there was even better news. When Jesus came, He not only covered my sin, but He also removed my sin. And He not only removed, but CREDITED His very own righteousness to my account! As a Christian, I can stand before God expressing my sin and failures and confidently claiming the finished work of Jesus.
Is God mad at Jesus?
Does Jesus feel the need to hide, perform, or work back into the Father's good graces?
Then neither do I.
Years after those papers have been flushed, I am still changed by this practice. I do not experience the same kind of guilt and condemnation any more! It's become a great visual to use with my kids when I've blown it. (Because this morning was a spilled cup of milk AND broken cereal bowl type of morning...so let's just say that on the way to church, this Momma had to confess a seriously bad attitude.)
And so, as a family, we are learning to practice confession and repentance together. Sometimes we write it down and sometimes we look each other in the eyes and talk it out. For Lent, we use a big bowl of flour that the kids use their finger to draw a cross, talk to God about their sin, then wipe it away symbolizing washing it white as snow.
Family life is fertile soil for growing repentant hearts and our homes are great classrooms in the school of repentance. Why should we let guilt and shame fester and build into a long list, when we can confess our sin to one another, pray for each other, and be healed? We can literally exhale the sin and inhale God’s forgiveness and purity in an instant.
“The Christian who is joyously walking in the power of the Holy Spirit and practicing spiritual breathing, deals with sin spontaneously and consistently as God brings awareness of specific sin. The accuser speaks in generalities while the Spirit points out clear actions or attitudes that are in the way of an intimate and powerful relationship." -Bill Bright
Psalm 139:23-24 says "Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting."
May today bring reflection and restoration to your soul as you come to Jesus, our Savior, the Great High Priest who is able to sympathize with our weakness and who covered, removed and credited us with Himself!
My name is Kitty Hurdle and I serve alongside my husband as a campus missionary--just like Susan. We help college students experience the joy of knowing Jesus at Ole Miss in Oxford, Mississippi. I also raise two precious children (who cause me to repent daily) and I write weekly at my newly designed blog, www.joelandkitty.com. Hope to get to know you better