The dryer is humming, the weekly calendar is laid out, and the Bible has been read. The perfect start to a Monday morning in my book. The only problem is, my heart is a bit heavy thanks to this morning’s appearance of the dreaded visitor.
The drill sergeant. I hope she’s never showed up at your home.
The drill sergeant snuggles for a second and then gets huffy if little people don’t hop to attention.
The drill sergeant barks at little people to EAT THEIR dag-gum BREAKFASTS! And internally fumes when the milk gets spilled (again).
The drill sergeant rolls her eyes at the evils of toothpaste smeared on the sink and dripping down the front of clean school clothes.
I can’t stand the drill sergeant and I want to say “over and out, 10-4” to this demanding, controlling part of my heart that appears more often that I like.
“So the trouble is not with the law, for it is spiritual and good. The trouble is with me, for I am all too human, a slave to sin. I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. I want to do what is right, but I can’t. I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. I love God’s law with all my heart. But there is another power within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. So you see how it is: In my mind I really want to obey God’s law, but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin. Romans 7:14-25
Thank God indeed. Thank God that I can confess my unwholesome talk, my lack of gentleness, patience, kindness, self control, etcetera, etcetera, and He is faithful to forgive me and cleanse the drill sergeant in me from all unrighteousness. He doesn’t just forgive me and cleanse me, but He fills me with Himself! He gives me the Holy Spirit, the power source for every second of my life as a Christian, and is bound by God’s Word to change me.
With that truth, we can walk in confidence today. Not confidence in ourselves and our checklists, systems and accomplishments, but in Him who has promised to make His fruit grow in us today! Because…
There is therefore now no condemnation for those of us who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit of life has set you free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death. For God has done what the law, weakened by the flesh, could not do. By sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin, he condemned sin in the flesh, in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us,who walk not according to the flesh but according to the Spirit. Romans 8:1-4
How are you seeing the fruit of God’s work in your own life? Any other recovering drill sergeants out there?
Kitty Hurdle is a missionary, momma and majorly obsessed wife. She and her family live in Oxford, Mississippi where they serve with Cru. Her passion is writing to encourage women to live out their faith in the season of life God has for them. You can read more of her work at her blog,www.joelandkitty.com and follow her on, Instagram.