Last year, after the Charleston shootings occurred, I spent the evening repeating the horrific events of that day over and over again in my mind. As I tucked my beautiful brown children in bed that night my soul was grieved. My Mom-heart was worried in a new way. There was now a new fear tugging at my thoughts.
As I put my children to bed that evening, my whispers in their ears were muffled by long pauses as I swallowed the knot of emotions resting in my throat: Child, You matter. You are a treasure. Your thoughts & opinions are important. You are daughters & son of our Most High God.
They stared blankly at me, wondering why I was so overcome. They had no idea of the tragedy of that day. This tragic event which occurred on the tapestry of our beloved country was sobering to my soul as I stared in their eyes.
Maybe my whispers to my kids were more for me that evening. Because every Mom wants to believe that their child is valued and important in the eyes of other humans, no matter the things that set them apart: race, religion, economic-status, education.
So, I proclaimed & prophesied in their little rooms that night that indeed, yes, they are so deeply important.
I reminded their hearts and mine that they are fearfully and wonderfully made. They are deeply and unconditionally loved by the Creator of this Universe.
That solemn evening, I was freshly aware that many fears and much confusion will have the opportunity to grip my heart as a mother. I can’t begin to understand all the hard parts of this life. And as my children grow, many unknowns will fill the corners of my thoughts. In those moments I want to choose to believe what the scriptures say.
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10)
In my moments of worry or fear or dismay I want to not be crippled with concern. I want to claim this verse out loud. I want to remind my heart that during hard seasons and even harder situations, He is near. He will strengthen my words & navigate my actions as I mother the hearts of my kids during difficult moments.
Susan is Wife to Ed & Mama to three courageous kids from Ethiopia. She loves connecting with other Moms on her blog (www.susanwanderer.com) Facebook or on Instagram: @SusanWanderer