What if she falls off the monkey bars and gets hurt?
What if she makes the same choices I made at her age?
What if my current sickness turns into a lifetime of sickness and he decides it’s too much to bear?
The What If questions plagued me. Once I started playing this vicious game, my thoughts spiraled. They started out innocent and genuine but ended cruel and twisted.
I played the What if game like it was my job! I mean, if this was my actual job, I would have been a top producer, if not CEO! But I never won accolades or gained anything with this game. I lost. Every thing. Every time.
I lost happiness.
I lost trust.
I lost sleep.
I lost hope.
I lost peace.
When my husband and I got married, I was in debilitating pain, unknown at the time, caused by endometriosis growing on my sciatic nerve. For the first year of our marriage, I spent 6 months out of work and face down on a bed. It was in these moments that the enemy tried to use my physical and mental weakness as ripe soil to plant seeds of fear and worry in my mind.
The faith that had carried me through so much up to this point in life, was now fading and fear was taking its place. My little games of What Ifs manifested into all-consuming worry and fear.
It was there, face down on the bed, at my lowest, that the Lord reminded me of His perfect strength. 2 Corinthians 12:9 says, “My grace is all you need. Only when you are weak can everything be done completely by my power.” He reminded me that He was enough, He was with me, and my weakness was where His strength thrives--no matter the “what if” but “even if.”
Even if she falls off the monkey bars, God will make sure she recovers and will provide comfort in her healing.
Even if she makes decisions I would never choose for her, God is writing her story and will not waste her pain.
And even if I’m bedridden the rest of my life, God will be with me and provide as a loving Father does!
2 Timothy 1:7 tells us, “The Spirit God gave us does not make us afraid. His Spirit is a source of power and love and self control.” We can turn our “what ifs” into “even ifs” because God’s power in us gives us the power to face any event that comes our way. We can rest in His care because
He is a promise maker and a promise keeper. He is not surprised by the events of your life or the turns you never saw coming. Even if your biggest fear happens, God is bigger. He is stronger. And He will carry your family through whatever you face.